Ester's character seems to be hardened rendering her incapable of experiencing her own pain. When she looses her virginity, she thought it would be a huge milestone in her life. It turns out to be an awful experience, ending in her hospitalization, yet she is numb to the whole event. She recounts the details with preciseness, but mentions nothing about how it made her feel. Shortly afterwards she finds out her best friend has hung herself. She is completely numb to this drastic news showing no sorrow at the loss of her friend. Ester's past experiences in the asylum must have desensitized her leaving her incapable of feelings her own emotional pain.